hey, its me again.. you know who you are
i feel pretty normal this month, everything run as it has to be
its a good thing i guess
i wont push anything too hard, as long as i put enough efforts, if its mean to be then it will mean to be
with a good will, then we will have a good finish..
and i dont want to do, what i dont want others do to me
so lets just enjoy this ride
if only i got a dollar, for every ‘I miss You’ that i did not (cannot) express to you, i may have thousands dollars by now..
you headed south with your hearts burning
you go out finding every meanings
of what you have been living so far
and i met you at the crossroad of heart
I’m living in the playland
slides up high with the roller coaster
watching the sky thru the carousel
i give you a doll at the shooting booth
happiness is what we are searching
but why did you go after all this rides
and the weekend is the only time you came
doesnt matter after all..
i’m the love of a playland
I’m feeling pretty normal today, just thinking about what happens last week, im pretty sure that god has answered my prayer pretty fast, not exactly fast, but related to the previous post, i kinda feel alive right now..
i had a good time with all my friends in almost all of my circles..
my bandmates ( tho we are not really in the best condition as a band right now, i kinda enjoying the friendship moment )
my college friends, they are just full of fun and some also really helpfull to me, couldn’t imagine my college life without ‘em, btw we had a blast on new years eve, good friends, good drinks, good times.. a good memories certainly made.
my worldmun fellow delegates, very unique people, never thought i’ll be able to learn this much from the people i know for only about 4 months.
and there is a kkn group that i’ll be living with for about a month, this one, i dont know how will turns out, but i really hope it will be a good experience. oh and i said to a friend, ask him to teach me cooking, he looks pretty confidence as a chef..
crush(es) haha yeah this point actually made my week, im just gonna let it flow, hope it will turns out good for me..
and rolling to the next topic, new year resolution..
i dont make resolutions this year, i dont want to end up disapointing like last few years’ resolution, im trying to be more present, and not haunted by the future like i always do, im just tired of being so over thinking and over analyzing things about future. i made this statement to remind me someday, just in case if im back to that state of mind.
top of the table, i really have to finish my college as soon as possible, i hope this will be the last year for me in college..
and the closest plan is kkn in majalengka started monday next week, and then finished mid feb, prepare and do everything in a month, and then Melbourne from mid to end of march. at least i know what i will doing in a first quarter of this year. oh and the band is going to record a new single around last week of this month, yeay.. but i have to go back first from majalengka ( it 4 hours drive, i hope i had a jetpack ) oh and also we are going to play a pretty big gig in east java next weekend, pretty excited about things i guess.. see you when i see you !
backsound : Blind Melon - No Rain
Today i gain a lesson..
You dont need a 100% sure measurement to take an action
because if its take too long, you will miss the shot..
home.. some says its where your heart belongs.
but now, seems like i dont know where my heart belongs, how to find that home, what home do i really want *sigh*
here comes another dull moment, im freakin heartless right now, i desperately need to be in love, to know that i still have feelings, to know that i’m alive. Love to anything, a person, things, arts, i dont care..
god, please show me that home.. so i know where to put my heart..
okaay, jadi beberapa hari ini tepat nya 4 hari belakangan saya cuman diem di rumah, terbaring lemas, untung nya hari ini sudah sangat membaik, dan besok udh mulai beraktifitas lagi..
rasanya sayang banget 4 hari berlalu gitu aja, rencana awal nya selain kuliah sy pengen manfaatin bwt bikin cover video brg seorang temen but too bad sy tepaar haha
but in the good side, i feel a bit lucky, karena rasa nya 4 hari ini sy seperti di detox, makan makanan sehat, buah2an, tidur teratur, dan alhasil hari ini udh cukup seger, mudah2an gak terulang lg sakit2 merepotkan kaya kemaren itu, lets get back to life !
dammit.. feel so bored and stressful today but i dont know why, my body feel sore, i cant think straight, instead of start taking steps i prefer to lay down..
what this feeling called, is there any cure for this, im kinda worried through things, paranoid, i hope it just me being depressed,
i could really use a holiday right now.. vacation, beach, foods, drinks, i need to get out of this town for a while, leave my mess behind me, and just hang around..
give me one more chance then i’ll make it good, cmon give me that !
i’ll wait if i have to, but now, i still dont know, should i wait or should i go..
About not another prick
